I have never been much of an addictive personality. I like certain things, don't get me wrong. I mean my nightly cocktail is pretty essential. Of course, I have my obsessive crazies, but addiction has never been one of them.
But tonight, I post out of fear of addiction. I have that hand-trembling, stomach churning need right now. I am worried about myself. I am worried that tonight when I go to sleep I will be dreaming of my next fix.
One of my Facebook friends got me hooked. I blame her completely. I will forever be an addict. Even if I stop tomorrow, I will be an addict.
I am not trying to make light or minimize the pain of addiction. I think there are places where the symptoms of addiction are enumerated.
A frequent symptom cited is an "inability to perform normal responsibilities." Well, there is a pile of dishes in the sink, a heap of laundry in the laundry room, my house is a mess, and M tells me it is very hot in here as I forgot to adjust the thermostat when I came in this afternoon.
Another symptom is that the sufferer continues to use substances or engage in behavior even when it is dangerous. Ok, maybe not dangerous, but certainly negligent to my children.
Suddenly, I have a fresh empathy for gamblers or compulsive porn watchers.
I want to come clean now. I want the cycle of addiction to break.
I am hooked on Bejeweled. I need help. Some one has to remove that tantalizing bookmark icon from the bottom of my Facebook page. Hours, days of my life are going to swirl down the drain of Bejeweled. The eternal challenge of a higher personal best--the humiliation and disappointment of all-time lows. This is my future--unless something can be done, I will be lost to Bejeweled.
This is a cry for help.
Bejeweled seriously. That is your addiction. I thought you had started using crack or xanax. Or was addicted to jewelry by the title. I never realized it was the game. Although I do get obsessed with Lego Indiana Jones on Wii. I even get mad when the kids play with me and aren't moving fast enough. There that is my confession.
ReplyDeleteAnything that gives us greater empathy for gamblers or compulsive porn watchers is alright with me!
ReplyDeleteOh I have bejeweled on my Sidekick. :-)
ReplyDeleteOK, I'll admit that I have no idea what Bejeweled is, but I have spent about 45 minutes reading back posts. I drop in every now and then--you really are hilarious and insightful and candid and hilarious. Sounds like you are having a great summer-- Maybe we can get a departmental shindig going before fall semester cranks up.
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